Does your brain ever turn off? Can you check out of it? Is it telling you positive things or negative things?
It recently occurred to me that “normal” doesn’t exist, because my normal isn’t yours. My mind exploded when I realized that Jeanette could shut hers off when she cleans the house. She says that the activity replaces the thinking and quiets her head.
I have no idea what that’s like. You mean you can vacuum to quiet the noise? No amount of activity ever does anything other than add to my internal chatter. Cannabis has helped me experience a bit more of that quiet, but my attempts to articulate it always devolve into some media outlet reporting the ways that “Pastor Craig Gross says that weed makes him closer to God,” twisting the narrative.